The cycle of decision is a monster that calls,
I just want to hide behind these four walls.
The promises to make and the promises to keep,
hurts me bad, like I’m burning down deep.
I feel the float, I feel the ache,
I feel the sadness when my joy they take.
I feel like the ocean dried up by the sinful sun,
I feel like a victim trapped at the point of a gun.
Is my choice heaven or hell?
Can someone hear me please can you tell.
I unveil that I’m OK even when I’m not,
I console myself that I will be even when my darkness and I haven’t fought.
I know, you know that after an instant this ain’t gonna matter,
But only I know that if I fail myself,
My whole soul will scatter.
The chambers of my heart have not yet been unlocked,
And they wanna burst open every time that I have been mocked.
The monster of decision will always keep calling me,
But how I will react,
You’ll just have to wait and see….